I Need You ....til fade

This song keeps playing in my mind. Catchy and raw. It fits where I am today:

"Need You"

I know its not your fault, but I'm a locked door

Anytime I'm a mess by someone before

And I wish that I, I could find a key

To unlock all the things that you want us to be

Let me open up and start again, But there's a safe around my heart

I don't know how to let you in, And that's what keeps us apart

And that's why I need time.

I said I need you,

I need you to understand, you, you, you [x2)



Call up the locksmith, Tell him we need him quick

We've got a million keys,

None of them seem to fit

While you're on the phone, call up the clocksmith,

Cuz I could use some time, Even the slightest bit

Let me open up and start again, And break this safe around my heart

I don't know how to let you in, And that's what keeps us apart

And that's why I need time I said I need you I need you to understand, you, you, you [x2]



I'm thinking now's the time,

Maybe its time to go, if I gave you my heart, be gentle,

I'm tired of laying low, lets give the world a show

And when you know, you know,

And when you know, you know, you know And when you know, you know, you know, you know And that's why I need time I said I need you, I need you to understand, you, you, you [x2]

I need you to understand [x4]

I need you [x3]

I need you, you, you

I Need You

My sister and I attended a tahlil organized for my late maternal grandmother. My parents and aunts were all away so we represented the family. When I arrived, I was amazed at the house full of people.

The attendees were mainly 50-80 years old. I felt very conscious. We made our way to the center of the room. We read Quranic verses. This elder lady shared her book with me when I forgot some of the verses (fail betul). She asked me whether I was ''pelapis'' (successors) to the existing members.

I asked the kind lady how she knew the deceased. She said that they have been friends for more than 20 years. They enjoy coming together to pray for their friends who have parted. Hearing that struck a huge chord with me.

These women band together for the common good and go beyond the call of friendship to bless their friends' soul. May Allah reward them all with Jannah for their good intentions. I revealed that I was the deceased's granddaughter. She then became very happy and showed me around, introduced us to a few people. These ladies recognized us, and yet I could hardly make their faces. I felt bad. I felt like I needed to know these women who supported my grandmother.

In any case, the point of writing is this, while I am counselling couples to proceed to the next step, couples who are separating, couples who contemplate divorce, singles in general, feuding best friends, and feuding colleagues, I begin to think about...me.


Where am I in all the equation?

Where will I be 20 years from now?

Who will remain 30 years from now?

An optimistic at heart, I tend to be passionate with matters close to my heart.

Islam, family, love, friendship, justice, etc.