Dear Martha Beck,
My friend introduced me to you. She's an avid fan after loyally following your appearances on Oprah, and now she subscribes to Oprah's O magazine just so she can read up on your columns. In her effort to enlighten me, I have been made aware of my emotional retardedness (this is an understatement).
This means that I have problems expressing and showing emotions particularly sadness and vulnerability. I have been aware of it, I just didn't realize it would also impact others around me. My Great Wall of Emotional Emptiness needs to be knocked down.
After careful and deep reflection of myself, I agree that my friend is spot on about me. It takes a lot of courage and the lowering of my pride to admit this.
The problem is I do not know how.
I've been this way since I can remember (elementary and high school?).
There is no prejudice towards anyone. Everyone meets the Wall. No exceptions.
I have been reading a few of your articles but couldn't find one that fits this particular area. I do feel that I need to get in touch with my emotional side, since i depend heavily on my rational capacities.
The consequences of breaking down the Wall is decades of emotional pain carefully managed rationally, which may release a flood gate of emotion. Think of it as an emotional tsunami.
How do you suppose I prepare for this?
You must be gentle with me. Frank, but gentle.
I read your article on Emo-Do i.e. being a Master of Emotion. Obviously I am still a white belt at Emo-Do, but I am serious at being a black belt.
Let me know.
L,
Emotionally Retarded
Bangi
Malaysia
Links: www.marthabeck.com and www.oprah.com/contributor/martha-beck
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